Pianoforte
May 16, 2008 by Lilian
Sorry, I have missed another day’s posting. I wrote some of this post yesterday, but didn’t finish it because Dad wanted to use the computer and I felt that I had hogged it for too long already.
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Today, in between visiting friends with a small baby and visiting my grandparents, I have been playing the piano. I haven’t done this properly for ages. I did attempt to play some carols at Christmas, but found that I was even worse at it than I thought I would be so didn’t play for long. However, today I decided to take the plunge and try out some of the pieces I used to play, to see whether or not I would be able to remember them.
I tried playing the piano the other day, but when I sat down at it and tried to play it felt like learning a foreign language. I couldn’t make my fingers do what they were supposed to do, the connection between brain, music, hands and keys was not there. Today (now yesterday) however, it came back to me a bit. It probably helped that I was attempting to play music that I must have practised dozens of times before, pieces I had to play for my exams or for my piano teacher. I remembered the tunes better than I remembered the technicalities of how to play them, but the lines and phrases seemed to come forward from the recesses of my mind more easily than I expected them to.
I wish now as I have before that I had been more studious and focussed on my piano-playing when I had the chance and, more to the point, a piano to play on! Yesterday I really enjoyed playing, something that I don’t remember doing very often when I was younger. I wanted to get the phrases right, to practise those twiddly bits over and over again until I could play it correctly; things which I would only have done under duress or the thought of an impending exam in my younger years. Alas for the follies of youth! I will have to go home and play my keyboard. It’s just not quite the same as the real thing.



It’s never too late to get back to playing the piano. If you look at it as a revealing worthwhile process and confront your fear and resistance, much is possible.